I was always one for special occasions, birthdays in particular. I know it doesn’t mean a lot to some people, birthday is just another day after all, but hey, if there is a day that I can make things all about me, then that’s exactly what I’m going to do (vain af I know).
So it only makes sense that come graduation, I was expecting it to be this amazing day, where all my friends and family will come and celebrate with me, and we’ll all just be enjoying ourselves, since seriously, what could go wrong all things considered?
A lot of things, as it turns out. I don’t really wanna go through the nitty gritty of things, but there was just a lot of stress and worry throughout, although you wouldn’t be able to tell if you looked at my instagram, since social media is a lie.
I’ve said this before and I’ll say it again, of course social media is a lie. No one has the obligation of uploading a photo of themselves crying about whatever shit they went through that day with a caption that details that experience, it is an individual choice. And as normal citizens, not “social media influencers” or whatever title they go by nowadays, it only makes sense for us to want to share the best part of ourselves in front of strangers’ eyes, and it has been that way decades before social media took over.
I don’t really know what I wanted to express through this post tbh, it’s just a little rant/reflective note for myself I guess. Stop putting so much pressure on certain days having to turn out spectacular, and just roll with it when shit starts hitting the fan. I don’t know if I can ever become that person, or even if I want to. But I think I’m fine with being the way I am, as long as I can stay true to myself and don’t feel the need to hide it from others, for the time being anyway, and that’s all that really matters I guess.
Oh and here’s a photo just ’cause.
Since I still have another two and half years (at least) to go with JD, getting my certificate didn’t feel all the significant in the end, although it does mark an end to three of the best years in my life thus far. There isn’t really much more I can say other than um, congratulations to me!